Dear A Moo
It was surprised me that you sent many texts to me in that few days. The words were touching without doubting. That surprised me because you rarely talked about sort of things to me, you know, something about love, relationship, what you really think…etc. Actually I thought you would never thought about this side because of you never shared these with me. Thank you for letting me know what’s in your minds and thank you for letting me become one of your caring.
Talk about the content you wrote in texts, my feelings about what you said were sad. I have to be honest, I have the problem to have equally passionate as I treated you before even until today. It’s a weird feeling which is just like the first sign I saw you in the BBQ restaurant. I don’t know the reason but I keep comparing you and every guy I met in my life. It’s not fair to either me or them. Many people said this to me and I just couldn’t help.
In the texts, you said “don’t go for cheap relationship”.
It doesn’t make sense why you sent me this especially I had already gone through so many cheap relationships right after you. You simply broke up my faith in love, you know, I always thought you were my Mr. Right. After you, I simply didn’t care whom I were been with coz I believe none of the relationship will be happy-ending. I don’t believe in love, I don’t believe that I am worth for being loved. So, I met several bad guys and I just gave up myself. You don’t know this coz I never told you. Every time I flied back to NZ, I behaved myself as I am still you good girl, but actually I were not. I didn’t believe anything include you.
Anyway, it shouldn’t be a good time and good place to talk about this. But just for replying your texts, thank you for your caring but most of your concerns were coming too late. I had gone though heart-breaking so many times and the initial and most major injury was caused by you.
But I still your good mimi, you know. I can’t do anything about it.
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